I Make the Impossible Possible

Below message is only suitable for the person I love to you. I will not entertain any people who like to comment on it except for the person authorized to do so. Thank you for your co-operation.

It has been a wonderful months been with you though there are many times that we had disagreement on certain things but that does not stop me from doing a lot of things for you. Yes, as much as I would like to spend time with you but you know that NS has drain away most of the time away from me. It wasn’t easy for me to allocate time for a lot of things. Most of the time its spent on you and thus other things I have been putting aside for quite a long time already. My sleeping time has reduced quite a lot ever since my training ends at Brani. The only time I get to have more rest is provided I have an extra leave to spare, other than that I didn’t really have a good rest most of the time. I know you notice that but you didn’t really bother about it and I do understand that. Like I told you before, you should be more fortuned that I could meet you most of the time even during weekdays not like those guys in the army. To me it is also fortuned for me as I get to go home most of the time and rest at home instead in camp but it wasn’t a very good idea totally also as it drains a lot of my time than when I’m in camp so there is still good and bad point to an extent.

I could not agree to some of the things like meeting time and to attend certain events as I do have my own reasons for not to. Partly it does really drain me totally out and it would be pointless for me to go with that kind of state I’m in as much as I do want to most of the time. It is not going to be easy for you to understand how I felt as you do not have to go through NS and had to work that kind of unearthly hour every now and then. I do admit neither am I also able to understand fully your working environment since I’m not in the company either. I tried to put myself in your shoe as much as I could and look at it in all kind of views to access how you felt. I do agree with what Idah mentioned before that it’s not going to be easy. I admire how she pass through that 2 years when her boyfriend is in army when she only get to meet ones or just simply twice a week only while we get to meet most of the time.

We take things for granted most of the time just because we simply just want what we want and we never consider other areas. You realized that my leave is always last minute then it’s confirmed, it is something that is not within my ability to control at all and it is also the reason why signing on wasn’t even an option for me. I told people why I do not like partly it was because of that and another reason was that I didn’t want to work on unearthly hour most of the time and had to cancel my plan when manpower shortage were to occur. It is something that I hate the most when I tried to go on leave.

I’m still glad that you still understand and care for me when you really sit down and thought about it. You didn’t realize it always until when I have to break it down into smaller picture to let you see then you realized it. You know that I care a lot for you and always standby your side no matter what happens. I’m glad you do also. Without you, my world would definitely be very dull and quite empty.

You have added a lot of colors to my world despite the fact that we always have time constrains to do a lot of things. I hope December I would be able to have the honor to spend one whole stretch  of off days with you. I love you lots. ^^

Its almost half a year. Time flies so fast and all of us are just half way past the mark before another year will come to another end again. Yet again, this year isn’t a very good year for everybody. First the continue down slide of the economy and next was the H1N1 flu that was spread from Mexico. Looks like the whole world should look at saving the earth before things goes into a worst state than now.

In my opinion, the mother earth seem to be complaining about us human not thinking for her. The issue about global warming has not been solved though there are measures taken to fight global warming but it was not enough. All countries are facing with lots of natural disaster and thus this is a sign that mother earth is still unhappy about humans not doing enough to save the environment. Next was the H1N1, which to me indicate that humans are getting more complacent and not worrying about their own health until things happens.

After all money is the root of all evil that cause people to work extra hard and become more evil in the process in order to earn more money or profit more.

Side track, I have a few issue that has yet to be solved. My house renovation is soon coming to an end by next week, I guess. The carpenters are now busy fixing up my cabinets and getting it in place. Hopefully, it will be done up before the end of this week for my room especially as I have alot of things to settle in my room. I wonder if they had installed locker for my drawer. There are just so many things to settle before the mid of this month.

The new intake just came in yesterday and would be joining my team tonight. I hope they are capable people. Now that things are moving slightly slower than usual. I guess I could get many things done before June. I still have a long list of things not yet competed and would like to get it done with my love ones.

I guess a few of my friends will be entering NS soon. Haha… I will be doing my countdown soon. Yes, finally its my turn to do the countdown though it is kind of childish to do so but it raise the hope that everything is drawing to a close before the new phrase comes in.